What have I gotten myself into??

Well it always works this way..... just when you don't want a relationship, boyfriend, whatever you want to call him, multiple problems arise.

Here's the scoop. see if you can follow me:

Boy #1 - We met in college. Sweet and 25. Has a few choice sexual thoughts in his mind. We get mad at each other for misinterpretation with one another. He does have great follow thur and makes me feel special with his calls, texts and conversation. It is super hard not to give in sexually.

Dilemma- He is going to Mexico for a month starting Friday and once school starts again he will be WAY too busy for "hang outs"


Boy #2- We met while my girls and I were out. He is super sweet to me and acts like no other girls exist when I am around. We don't talk too much and he NEVER CALLS OR TEXTS first. Has no follow thru and if I see him it will be random. I do like the way he makes me feel when we are together.

Dilemma- His friends say that he is "into me" but he doesn't act like it?


Boy #3- Met at my birthday party. Super fun and sweet. We talk but not so much on the compliments. He has a great personality and AMAZING follow thru (which I love) We hang out at least once a week and text periodically thru the week.

Dilemma- we are not from the same religious background and you must be equally yoked.

So. As all the relationships progress. I find myself more and more confused as to what I should do. Any Ideas????

I don't want to get all worked up over this like I often do. Hence why I don't want to be in a relationship in the first place.

My motto: "Girls just wanna have fun"!

running on back up

It is obvious to me that when you are tired your brain shuts down ... literally.

At the 2nd job yesterday, I just couldn't function. I kept messing up everything and could not even push the correct computer buttons. My managers thought it was funny but I was hurtin bad. Physically, Emotionally... the whole 9. I really need a break.

Meanwhile, I have been feeling like I need to make good on my life. I don't like negativity and feeling uneasy with people. I usually say my peace, it makes people mad and then tell them I am sorry we don't see eye to eye.

So, with that said I did that with Mr. Text message(from my previous post)

I said to him: "I don't know why our conversations are so intense and end up with one of us feeling uneasy. I don't like that."

Now lets analyze this:
1: I told him how I felt good or bad.
2: I didn't back down from what I had told him previously.
3. I don't want to hold grudges and want to just be at peace with all relationships in my life.

I also emailed one of my BFF's I haven't talked to in like 2 weeks. Just to see what is going on.

It always seems hard for people to put their pride aside and admit when they are wrong. I am fortunately good at this and can own up to my mistakes.

On a good note: I went shopping this weekend and got new stuff. Went on a "hang out" with "Champagne" (don't really want to call it a date??) to a pub and was so tired had to bail out early.

We made plans to hang out later this week since he is going to Dallas for the weekend. He is going to cook dinner and I will bring the wine :)

He texted me to confirm this last night. So all is well.

The details on why we cant be together..... EVER will be reviled at a later date.

I texted Mr. R last night since I had not heard from him in over a week. He replied and told me he went out to the same place we always go.

I was upset but in the same breath not really. Should I be???

I believe One Tree Hill Tivo is calling my name for tonight.

Twenty- Four

Well I must say... I am still freaking tired from the weekend, but I wouldn't have traded it in for anything!!!

Lets start at the beginning... Friends show up at 6:40 ( I told them 30 mins earlier than we actually needed to leave because of the previous time issue we have had. Read the time blog if you don't know what I am talking about) 

We head downtown to get my "cake" ...ok cupcakes and get to the restaurant on time. Here is where it starts: 1. there is a Halloween parade going on so a ton of "one way" streets are closed ...we drive around in circles for like 20 mins trying to get to where we need to go.   2. We have to go on an uphill-one way valet lot. ( yea it was nuts) 

But we get the cakes and we are on our way! 

Dinner was amazing! 10 girlies showed up and we just had a ball. We took pics and laughed. Food was pricey but the experience was priceless!

After that was party time....and boy did we! The pub was nice enough to give me a free bottle of champagne. (which I drank by myself) got tons of free drinks and even money! 

Remember in the previous blog, Mr. R??  Well through random text messaging I invited a ton of people and told them to come to my party. He was on the list and told me he would ask his buddy if he wanted to go. 

Low and behold, him and his friend showed up!!! Now I know I have been a man hater for quite sometime now, and don't get it twisted I still am. But boy did it feel good to have a boy show up just for me.

We hung out all night, took pics together and he bought me drinks... I felt like we were getting comfortable with each other. 

At the end of the night we got dropped off at my house to get my car( there was no way I was going to drive myself) and set off to his house.

I was fully prepared to stay on the couch and just chill. But that is not what happen.... 

We pillow fought, laughed under the covers and looked sweet at each other ( bedhead, morning breath and all) 

We finally got up at 12 and ran errands and then went to lunch ( guess it was a date)! he paid. 

It was the best thing I could have ever asked for...He says he will call/text but I am very content with just leaving things like they are... I guess I am saying if he doesn't call, I wont be upset. 

This birthday is up there in the top 5! 

Next year: Vegas baby!